i feel so depressed. how come EVERYBODY seems to be enjoying jc life??? except me, of course. everyone seems to bond so well with their ogs. well yeah except me. i'm just an outcast in mine. even now we're split into classes, my og still hangs out together during breaks, eat together, sit together in lectures...but i'm not part of it!!!!!!!!!!! :( i feel so outcasted and hurt everytime i see them together. but am i supposed to go join them on my own? i would feel so left out then! its like they didnt even want me to be in their gang. i'm not included, so y should i go and tag along with them? i bet half of them already forgot my name anyway.
sigh, so this is how being an outcast feels like. i sound so pathetic. anyway, since i'm an outcast already, i might as well join chinese orchestra, which is an outcast cca rite? anyway, i rather be in CO then in mentoring or whatever. mentoring sounds even more nerdy than CO. anyway, its only for 3 months. i can survive. after 3 months, i'll probably be forced to get out of sa anyway....
i feel so stupid complaining about trivial stuff like this, while so many ppl r sufferering from real problems like the tsunami...yet i'm complaining that life sux cos i dun like my jc... yeah i shouldn't do that!!!! at most, get out after 3 months lor. maybe go poly or something. my mum would probably want to kill me or disown me if i really scored 20 over points...it would be such a disgrace too...esp since my sis had scored 6...but if i REALLY scored 20 over points, it would solve a whole lot of problems for me. i would automatically get kicked out of sa. can't go to any other jc either. so, poly is the only route. wheares if i got points like 16, 17, 18 etc..i would have to make a tough choice of deciding which jc to go to..and wat if i'm an outcast there again!?! that would be a terror. so, yeah, anyway i already predict that i will get 20 over points. i hope its not THAT bad. if not, i really dunno how to face my parents on the day of o level results.
sigh. enough of this crapping i guess. right now i don't really care whether i'm an outcast or not. i just cannot stand those girls wif a fake accent. slanging girls. yyyyyuuuuuckkkkkkkk. its disgusting. i try not to think abt it.
shit, there's civics lesson tmr.....sobz....