sigh...i'm suffering from post tuition depression.....yeah AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i guess its official..i will be taking arts in jc...whenever i look at my verification slip..i feel a pang of regret for putting arts..but then again, my science is really really cannot make it type...so its like i have no choice but to take arts. but then!!! my arts suck as well. i actually failed geography at prelims. failed!!!!!!!!! i still can't really believe it now. and look at my ss, which sux. my lit is quite ok at times but sucky at times too. so it all depends.. and jc lit is like super super CHIM. wat shakespear lah, poetry lah...i think i jus bluffed my way thru o level lit...how can i continue to bluff my way thru at a levels? for sci is definitely a gone case, cos i REALLY bluffed my way thru. i dunno any chem and physics at all. i'm still at the basics. compare me now wif a sec 3 girl, i'm SURE i'm lousier. ok but like whatever. i already put arts and that's final. so i have to just try my best for the next two years. if i get into jc when the real results r out, that is.
and anyway...back to my post tuition depression..i was talking to clemmie on msn yst...she's going back for chua's tuition next yr...and we were just talking abt our tuition class and blah blah blah..and my post tuition depression just CAME BACK!!!!!!!!!! oh MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i totally don't need my depression back after i managed to get over it the last time. man!!!!! i just realised that probably the whole class will be going back. like clem, jerrine, jilyn, serene, nic, EVERYONE will be back there!!! expt ME, cos i'll be pathetically taking arts at a not-so-top jc while all of them thre will be taking science at rj, hc, nj, whatever. yeah. so i guess its kind of smart of me to not go back cos if i go back i'll be (duh) at the bottom again. given the fact that i actually don't have any basic concepts of physics. siiiiiiiiiiiiiiigh.
so its final. i chose arts and that's that, i can't regret anymore or i'll drive myself crazy.